I feel like a heifer

It has been a little over a month since Jacob and I got married- and it is time to get back on the wagon. I feel disgusting. I have been eating & drinking everything in site. I am scared to death to get on the scale and I know that I am going to feel so depressed... Im just hoping that since I put the weight back on so fast I can peel it off at the same rate. So, that brings me to declare: I am starting Jumpstart to Skinny TOMORROW. PARTY IS OVER. And this time- I am without a doubt finishing. Last time I lost over ten pounds in 2 weeks, then pretty much quit. THIS TIME I vow to do even better. So... here we go again.